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What’s New Wednesday: March

There’s a lot of new stuff coming up. A few weeks ago, I announced a new collection of poetry was coming on April 13, Black Chaos. I’m still doing some stuff for promotion and am awaiting a couple reviews. Once I have those, I’ll share with everyone so you can see what others are saying about the collection. I have also had some bookmarks printed for the release of the new book. I should get those in the mail by next week. I have more details about those and other bookmarks I’ve designed later this month.

I will also expand the reach of the eBook for my short story collection, The Morbid Museum. KDP select end for that book on March 9. After that, I will include the book on other e-reader platforms. I have also redesigned the paperback cover, so it looks a little cleaner and I’ve put together a hardcover edition. I plan to get a few more reviews of the book to put quotes on the back cover of the hardcover and the new paperback. I expect to have these ready by the end of April or begging of May. I’ll have more details on that as we get closer.

The biggest change that’s coming to blog posts is our Wacky Wednesday words. Starting on March 17, I’ll focus on words from 1920’s slang. We’re gonna’ bring back the Roaring 20’s. The rest of the blog will have business as usual and I’m preparing for April and National Poetry Month. Once again, I’ll have a poem every single day as well as the other posts you’ve all come to enjoy like Wacky Wednesdays, Coffee and Contemplation, Snapshot Saturdays, etc…Are you excited? I’m excited. Let’s make sure we have fun this year.

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Black Chaos is Coming

Official Announcement Time: My next collection of poetry is coming April 13th. The cover reveal is below. This collection will feature 30 new poems. That’s all. It’s a short collection compared to my many others. I took the advice from a reviewer and didn’t put so many poems in this time. There are a couple poems that might feel out of place, but it relates to several months of growth I experienced. You can pre-order the eBook on B&N Nook and Amazon Kindle. The paperback will be available in April. It will be a small paperback. I also plan to have some bookmarks available for sale to go along with the release of the book.

So, what’s this collection about? Here’s the online description: “Depression is black chaos. A chaos that destroys the soul and pushes friends and family away. This collection features poetry about loss and solitude. It’s a journey of rediscovering and learning to love one’s self. A journey of hitting rock bottom and climbing out of the deep pit of despair.” Maybe that’s not your cup of tea, but writing these poems was the beginning of recovery for me. I will never stop fighting this battle. It will get easier with time. Anyway, once I decide on a design for the bookmarks, I’ll ask everyone’s opinion before printing them. Tell me what you think of the cover in the comments.

The Cover

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Positivity Gave me a World Without Limits

So, it’s been a year to the day since everything fell apart around me. I don’t want to go into all the details. On October 7, 2019 (the day after my world imploded), I started writing three good things that happened to me every day. Some days I’d write more than that, but I always made sure to have at least three. As time went on, I started writing four good things that happened to me every day and why those things were important to me. I’ve done this every day for an entire year. What’s different about myself now from one year ago?

For starters, I’m more positive. Not only that but it’s easier to see positive outcomes or circumstances. I lived so long in a black stew of anger and depression. I thought that was normal. I thought there was no way I could be wrong. I call it the black chaos. With this extra positivity, I noticed I enjoyed little things more than before. Some things I don’t remember ever enjoying. Like taking a picture with friends. That darkness kept me from living my life fully. I never realized how much I had been missing.

Another thing that changed came as a surprise to me. I was sharing some of my story with a coworker. She said she noticed a difference. I thought she would say I was happier or more cheerful. But I didn’t expect her reply. She said I had more confidence in myself. It never occurred to me that would be something that would improve. That’s when I really took hold of this positivity. Not only did I keep making changes in my life, I started looking forward to those changes and what they would bring. The sky was not the limit. The stars were not the limit. The world had become limitless.

I still have a long way to go. I’m not ready for any kind of romance. I’m not even ready for dating. My goal for this next year is to find a full-time job so I don’t have to work several part-time gigs. I have the means to live comfortably and save money, but I want something more fulfilling. I also plan to finish the first draft of the first novel I’ve ever written. Maybe I can get a publishing deal in the next year and that’ll be the first step towards a career. Like I said, possibilities are limitless.