Throwback Thursday Poetry: In My Time of Dying

the days have grown beyond my reach
it appears my voice has begun to leak
listening to the Language of my Eyes
watching the distant Cries of my Mind
asking for the very last Sign
how shall i feel upon my Dark Demise
curious of my last days on the earth
what will happen during the time i die
will i continue to question my worth
will anyone notice as my body is dispersed
in the ashes my soul will lurk
until the last loved one no longer looks
at this moment, i am released
to the darkest of the deep
here i’ll stay
until existence withers away
and on that day
i shall be joined
by no one, that is to say
if i am alone on the final day

i would like to have peace
by the end of the road
but the way things are going
i just don’t know
if i will find happiness
before the end of my life
or if it will come
as i start to die
it would be ironic
to have the best day of my life
and fall with the Sun
back into the Sky
my life would end
as the Moon ascends
and the cries of the Night
would be gone out of sight
with no one to look or care
if the Divine Gift disappears
and the only one to think of me
is the voice inside Laughing

Early poetry from James. From the poetry collection Pariah Bound: The Lonesome Poetry.

Throwback Thursday Poetry: My Fate

there is a darkness growing within me
only seen by me and i
breaking through this darkness will be
sooner than you can hide

i am the moon
two faces i will show you
one you would approve
the other would not be true

stepping
on the dark side of the moon
watching
what you would do
running
you will do now
crying
i don’t know how

i have feelings of hate
family causing this state
memories of rape
fantasies of killing the saint

you have nowhere to hide
it is you
that i will find
your face i shall first break
your body thrown up on stakes

the time has come
for me to return
i’ll remain docile
until your mistake
this is my fate

Early poetry from James. From the poetry collection Pariah Bound: The Lonesome Poetry.

Throwback Thursday Poetry: Acceptance

running through the forest trees
searching for some inner peace
searching for serenity
wishing for acceptance
not sure if it’s there
running out of time to spare
where’s the compassion of the world
lost within self-image and egos
lost here with no place to go
much has happened in this time
too much to try and remember
my conscience wishes to surrender
looking for a place in life
knowing my place is rejection
there are no connections
i feel this way every day
with no solution that can be seen
what does all this mean
have i not proven myself by now
how many years of this torture
never to be accepted before

Early poetry from James. From the poetry collection Pariah Bound: The Lonesome Poetry.