Tuesday Poetry: Demisexual

It’s always been different for me
I used to think it was
Because of anxiety
I’m uncomfortable around new people
Connecting with someone romantically
That never happens right away
It takes time to feel attracted to someone
They are often friends and 
Often don’t feel the same
Rejected
Sometimes they ignore and avoid me
I get over it
I can even maintain the friendship
If the other person wants to
But finding a partner
Is a losing battle
I don’t want to feel alone anymore
Friendships never last
I’ve been called prudish
I’m not sexual or romantic
I try but fail
Is it worth trying again

From the poetry collection Cats, Coffee, Catharsis.

Poetry Monday: The Woman

She’s not just a woman
She is The Woman
The only one
She has such confidence and
Command of her sexuality
She is the most intelligent
The most beautiful
The most alluring
Goddess to grace
This dumpster fire of my life
I cannot live without her
And yet I cannot have her
I don’t want to control or possess her
Love is about appreciation not possession
I love her
I admire her
She does not feel the same
But she doesn’t reject me
She is mysterious and interesting
She’s everything I want in a life partner

From the poetry collection Men Are Garbage.