Throwback Thursday Poetry: Thoughts Inside

i’ve no self-esteem
i’m beginning to bleed
inside to out
i’m always in doubt
of myself
and everything i do
no one will help me
no one sets me free
compassion’s what i want
i never got a lot
trust i see in you
make my dreams come true

this is not healthy
i need some company
i cannot live alone
in my home
by myself
with no one to talk to
i walk down the hall
and stare at you all
you look at me weird
as if i should be feared
it’s not polite to stare
but i don’t care

where is the laughter?
what’s happily ever after?
i wonder about my life
mainly when i’ll die
stuck with myself
and nowhere to go
it’s hard to live this way
each day is gray
trapped inside my head
i can make nothing mend
my soul is in pain
please take it away

Early poetry from James. From the poetry collection Pariah Bound: The Lonesome Poetry.

Poetry Monday: Castrate the Rapists

Explicit Content Warning

Once,
A group rallied
To make rape
Legal.
I was angry – 
That night at work,
A female coworker
Said some guy
Said weird things
Then got her a drink;
A soda.
It tasted weird.
She didn’t feel well.
We kicked him out.
I have zero
Tolerance for
Rapists.
I’d rather
Have my dick
Cut off
Than force
Myself
Onto someone – 
I just want
To be loved

From the poetry collection Men Are Garbage.