Flashback Friday Poetry: Losing Heart

i once made a decision
to leave all i knew behind
this thought made with precision
to seek out what i can’t find
the future i envisioned
now seems false within my mind
a fault that i must revise

searching with contemplation
ignoring my self-made lies
fighting the captivation
from this gutter i will rise
now with thoughts of corruption
that corrupt my tearless eyes
it’s the time; i must decide

nothing Is left here for me
nothing gives me peace inside
i have no reason to be
someplace that gives me no pride
to the place that sets me free
that gives me no reason to hide
a place where my heart won’t grind

Early poetry from James. From the poetry collection Pariah Bound: The Lonesome Poetry.

Flashback Friday Poetry: Truth in Dreams

often
in the still of night
one can find a sightless sight
blinded
by all one can see
sight is your worst enemy
tonight
no one hears you scream
trapped in the wake of a dream
inside
your subconscious mind
lies the truth that you will find
helpless
to the pain that comes
you see false love is what numbs
numbing
your mind and your heart
emotions stop taking part
awake
with a hardened chill
loss of love destroyed your will

Early poetry from James. From the poetry collection Pariah Bound: The Lonesome Poetry.