Poetry Monday: Snowflake Requiem

In it’s first instant
The first moment
It’s first thought
The first feelings
Falling – drifting – 
Gracefully dropping
From unknown origins
The air is cold and
Powerful, pulling, dragging
But the snowflakes
Never collide or touch
Graceful chaos – 
This snowflake
And it’s unique pattern
It can’t remember the time before
Maybe the other flakes
Have forgotten too
It floats and falls
Surfing on gusts
Still never touching
The multifarious falling flakes
On a journey down
Down to the endless white
What is the destination – 
After the eternity
The snowflake lands
On the branch of a tree
The other flakes continue down
To the whiteness from which
The tree protrudes
The flake sits alone – 
It wonders again of
The time before the fall
And where it came from
No memories are there
The other flakes sit together
On other branches and the ground
Other flakes have stopped falling
This flake sits at the top of a tree
Overseeing so many
Distant and cut off from so many
It wonders how all the other
Flakes can be together
How were they able to come together – 
Children below play with
Multiple flakes packed together
Snowballs, snowmen, snow angels
The one flake envies the fun
All the flakes participate
Except this one
Who doesn’t know how
To join with another flake
Who sits atop the tree
Afraid to join the crowd – 
The night falls and passes
And the sun creeps
Into existence
The air is still cold
But lifeless – 
The flake watches it’s
Brethren disappear
In large patches
Vanishing, melting
Where have they gone
And did they go together – 
In it’s last instant
The last moment
It’s last thought
The last feelings
Drifting – darkness – 
A lonely sleep

From the poetry collection Cats, Coffee, Catharsis.

Poetry Monday: Hating Yourself Only Hurts Those Close to You

You never see the fall
You see the struggles
Along the way but
You don’t see what
They do to you
And when they affect you
You don’t see what
You do to others
The ones who care
Are hurt the most
No matter how much
You hurt, it’s never
As much as how
Much you hurt them
Sometimes to heal
And to show how much
You love someone
You have to go away
To stop hurting them
And don’t come back
Until you love yourself

From the poetry collection Cats, Coffee, Catharsis.

Poetry Monday: Lethargy

Is this depression – 
A lack of interest
In all things
In everything
In nothing – 
I just lay here
With my thoughts
No distractions
Nothing to stop me
From thinking too much
A downward spiral
Into the darkness
Because of boredom – 
Am I just bored
And feel unhappy
Because I’m not
Entertained – 
Are boredom
And depression
The same thing
But from different
Perspectives
Like the opposite
Sides of a coin – 
I can force
Myself into some
Activity
Something to keep
The darkness away
But it’s always there
Lurking
Plotting
Biding its time
Waiting to consume
When I’m most
Vulnerable – 
Why do I
Feel this way
Why do I
Always return
To the black pit
Standing at the edge
Thinking that
Dark mystery
Is more attractive
Then life
Then living
Then love – 
I don’t want
To go into the pit
But I’m running
Out of directions
To turn

From the poetry collection Cats, Coffee, Catharsis.