Trust Issues

It’s a big deal
For me to tell
Someone I trust them
I don’t trust easy
And when I do
They prove me wrong
With each year that
Passes it takes longer
For someone to gain
My trust – 
Losing old friends and 
Gaining new ones but
Never trust anyone ever
Trust is earned not
Given but always lost
Never to be regained
Trust is hard to
Find and also hard
To keep – 
I don’t trust myself

Pendulum

Rocking back and forth
Back and forth, back and forth
Got to keep moving to 
Make the pain go away
And object in motion ages
Slower than an object at rest
Tears don’t swell as fast
In my eyes if I’m moving
Push the pain and the tears away
Rocking back and forth
Back and forth, back and forth
Just keep moving, just keep moving

From the poetry collection Cats, Coffee, Catharsis.